You Made Me Cry :'(

Saw this poem...i wanna cry...i'm such a silly leech :'( thx everyone who came to join us for the xmas eve party...appreciate all of u for spending xmas with me! It really warms my heart to know that a recently married couple first got to know each other through our networking events! This is one of the best testimonials I've received so far! =)

Everyone only see my glamorous side but who has seen the sadness behind my smile n the fear n loneliness in my leechie life? everyone only sees the party gal in me...but who has seen how hard i slog in my leechie life? nobody!!! i have nothing...except my parents' unconditional love! most ppl r damn self-centred n r nice to u only if u do certain things for them...we r living in a damn practical society afterall...only our parents' love for us is unconditional...anything else tt anyone says or does for u come with a condition =.=" nobody gives a shit abt me...nobody appreciates me...u only choose to see the worst in me...i know u r juz waiting for me to screw up my life! what goes around comes around...i believe in retribution!!!

Brian asked me how to have a happy Xmas...i honestly dont quite know how to answer him...i dont like the loneliness of Xmas :'( i have nothing...no one :'( I admit readily tt i'm not happy n i dont know how to be happy...:'( i look at som ppl who r inferior to me in so many ways...be it in terms of looks, wealth, intelligence, popularity, class, style, humor, etc...everything...but yet...they r much much happier than me!!! silly me started to think...why do they think tt they r more worthy to be happy than miserable me??? why r they much happier than me? why??? cos i know i wont b happy if i were them!

Wonder y r there so many wishy-washy guys these days...sometimes i think i'm more man than them! u can juz treat me as a guy! =.=" even my leechie mum laughs at how "gu-niang" or "ladylike" some guys can be these days! o.O" too many wimps walking around these days! -.-"

Anyway, it's damn shallow to judge me based on what u do...we r all diff individuals...i have nothing to say if u deem it fair to judge me based on ur short yardstick! -.-" it's juz like how i used to wonder why som ppl need to take such a looooooooong time to write a simple report in english...esp when i can finish it within minutes...or how they cant use proper english n send me smses in broken english that i have to read n re-read to try to decipher what the hell they r saying...well, guess not everyone is as blessed as me to have attended a decent grammar school n i gotta thank my leechie mum for pushing me tons of assessment books when i was a kid...lol...i understand tt not everyone is comfy with speaking in english...n i know i cant use my own yardstick on others...likewise, i dont like others to judge me based on their shallow minds!!! u need to go get a life manz!!! -.-" n the most amusing thing is how those who r inferior than me in so many ways judge me n think tt i'm inferior to them n look down on me...lol ;p call me a shallow n materialistic leech...but i really dunno what term to use on such superficial humans...lol ;p well, u can continue to perceive me as some stoopid airhead...but i'm not soooooooooo stoopid as couldnt tell if a person is lying!!! i'm a lie-detector! -.-"

From my cousin:
"人生短暂，容不下虚情假意"
"Say what you mean and mean what you say."

"You made me CRY

You made me cry...
You tore me apart..
You left me in tears..
You've shattered my heart..

It wasn't your fault..
I guess it was me..
for love can't be forced..
Perhaps we weren't meant to be..

It still doesn't help..
now that i know..
Because for some reason..
my heart won't let go..

I've tried more than once..
to get over you..
but you make it so hard..
with cute things you do..

I thought love was joy..
but i've got nothing to gain..
just sorrows..,tears..
and a little more pain..

The day the pain started ..
reality came too..
It was the day i realized ..

......I'LL NEVER BE WITH YOU......."


"I'm done writing these e-mails that you never seem to read.
I'm done trying to be a friend when I always get hurt.
I'm done thinking that you may like me, when it'll never come true.
I'm done filling up my notebooks with songs about you.
I'm done crawling into my bed and crying every night.
I'm done believing that you're perfect, because I can see every flaw clearer than anyone.
I'm done."

"Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will.
You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts.
You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt.
Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances.
You just have to live life to the fullest,
Tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain,
hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts.
Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."

Interesting Quotes:

"Its obvious in times of distress who r your true friends and who are just there along for the good times only. Guess I learnt the most important lesson this year. Have a few true friends rather than a bunch of fake ones!"

“The best revenge is being a success” ~ Mario Teguh

"What greater thing is there for human souls than to feel that they are joined for life - to be with each other in silent unspeakable memories." ~ George Eliot

"
如果愛上了，
就不要輕易放過機會，
也不要輕易的放開手，
更加不要輕易的放棄。
莽撞，可能使你後悔一陣子；
怯懦，卻能使你後悔一輩子。
所以，
愛~ 請轟轟烈烈；
不愛~ 請徹徹底底。"

My blog is still here:
I'm not sure what exactly happened...but i tried to search for my leechie blog n it says my blog has been removed!!! my fren told me the same thing...so scarry...but i managed to logon...think my blog is working now...i even hav visitors from Venezuela...lol...


The epitome of COOL: Cooler than Cool! B-)
Which girl doesnt love Chanel? i dont know any...perhaps my leechie mum? (but she's not a girl...she's an obasan in denial...lol...she better not hear this ;p) n btw i still dont have the classic Chanel bag...n nobody is buying leechie one :'(


O.o


:'(


♥ Love this song from Material Queen: Is this all? :'(
Is this all i'm been waiting for? juz realized tt i could be dead in the not-too-distant future...what to make of my pathetic existence on planet earth? o.O"
Humanity...a quality which is clearly lacking in many cold urbanites whose minds r focused only on $$$ n how they can make use of other humans to achieve their goals! -.-" do u really think tt i'm sooooooo stoopid not to realize this? =.="