Maybe i'm growing older n due to the long long hours tt i chalk up? I was whining to my leechie mum tt i'm usually v.tired by wed...even more tired by thurs...n almost dead by fri! haiz >.<" Suddenly, there's alot more work to do...but som ppl still judge me n think tt i'm som superficial airhead...n the v.minute tt i mentioned tt i'm slogging...i'm perceived to be trying to say tt i'm a gd gal? am i really so unworthy in ur eyes? i know i'm damn far from perfect but am i really so unworthy in ur eyes tt u have such a low opinion of me? :'(
Tired of trying so hard...yet i can nvr please someone... :'(
At the end of the day...we r all reduced to ashes...y bother to bear so much resentment towards others? =.="
Won a complimentary haircut by Kim Robinson Salon (worth $128) from L'Officiel's contest...but too bad tt i'm not eligible to use it...cos it's only valid for first-timers...was contemplating who to give this voucher to...finally gave it to my sup...he's leaving for US v.soon...i know i'll miss his reassuring presence...i even started to imagine him being around our workplace the week tt he went on leave =.=" i'm starting to feel like Linus from Peanuts comic strip with my security blanket being ripped away from me! :'( i know i'm v.insecure...but i'm only human...many ppl dont appreciate what they have until that thing disappears from your life! he was v.candid with his comments "why the haircut so exp?$128?i thought haircut is only $10?" lol...but at the v.least, i know he appreciates my gesture n hope he'll enjoy the haircut...the massage there is really good manz...i rem walking in once with a bad neckache n the neckache disappeared right after the shampoo massage! at least this voucher wont b wasted on someone who doesnt give a shit abt me n who has a habit of ignoring leechie! =.="
Feeling emo again...n i've lost count of the no. of times tears welled up in my eyes this week :'( think colleague could tell tt i'm moody n offered me Meiji Chocs which he said is a mood-lifter...but i was tearing again when i got home :'( i dont have a life...my life only revolves around work n my parents...i have nothing but parents who love me...i'm such a pathetic leech...i'm supposed to b an annoying leech...besides my leechie parents, nobody gives a shit abt me...no one would care abt me even if i were to disappear from the surface of earth...:'(
Friday:
Juz went down to pick up the invites to Johnnie Walker F1 Jet Black party...but havent decide who to invite...not interested to invite those guys who treat me as a party entry tix n juz wanna make use of me to get to know more gals....gotta consider carefully lest kenna rejected by som unappreciative ppl again! >.<" brought leechie mum to Big O cafe for dinner...the Bailey's mudpie there is yummy manz...i ♥ mudpies ;p then leechie mum sat in a corner to watch me during my kickboxing class...i thought she couldnt see me cos i hid at the back...but she told me tt she could see me clearly! -.-" anyway, i burst out laughing during the class again...an annoying habit tt i developed during the previous personal training class (could still rem tt my personal trainer was quite annoyed n had to wait for me to stop giggling before continuing) i can laugh at myself cos i'm juz a clown (anyway, we r all actors on this stage of life...i juz happened to be a lowly clown :'() the security at H&M refused to let us into the store when we rushed over after my kickboxing class...but i got the head of security to bring the dress tt i bought in HK n with the sensor tag still attached into the store to get the sensor tag removed...
Btw, i was juz testing him...the cheapo guy couldnt hide his keen interest when he got to know tt i have a $50 dining voucher...epitome of cheapo-ness!!! think he somehow found his way to my leechie blog...i'm thinking if i shld start to impose a users-only view thingy o.O" som ppl may hav a damn low opinion of lowly leech...i know my own insecurity has caused my silly actions to b irritating to someone but som cheapo guys r juz plain irritating!!! >.<" btw, one doesnt need to pretend to share common interests as a leech...i'm not so stoopid tt i cant tell tt a person is lying! n Marcus was trying to tell me tt som guys shldnt even be Plan Z...meaning tt they shldnt even b considered even when all the guys in this world r dead!!!
I was watching this 11pm show on Channel 8: there is this materialistic gal (Su Yanqiu) who plotted n schemed to try to get the man of her dreams (Mingzhang)...who in turn loves another gal who is in a relationship with another guy who was swopped at birth with the first guy (Mingzhang)....sounds complicated ya...anyway, Su Yanqiu finally won Mingzhang's love...but the man of her dreams turned out not to be the rich man's son...but a pauper's son...she was initially horrified to learn that truth...but she stuck by her man n helped him to plot n scheme to try to win back the inheritance...n still stuck by him n encouraged him when he landed up in jail...n she still stood by him n even married him while he was in jail...n she was already heavily pregnant with his child by then!
Would u call her brave or silly? would u do what she did in the name of love? it started out from v.materialistic intentions initially but blossomed into true love...i guess u would call that true love...if not, why would she make such big sacrifices for a man she doesnt love? how would u judge her? would u still call her a materialistic gold-digger???
"如果有一天你想哭，打電話給我，我不會承諾能讓你笑，但會陪你一起哭；如果有一天你想逃離，不要害怕，打電話給我，我不會承諾讓你停下來，但我會和你一起跑；如果有一天你不想聽任何人說話，打電话給我，我會一直很安靜地陪伴你。但如果有一天你打給我，没有回應的話，請你立刻來見我我，也許我需要你陪伴。"
"當你和心愛的人吵架吵得面紅耳赤，氣得你離家出走 (大約1小時)，不接聽他的電話 (索性關掉手機)，之後你回到家時，見到你那個他買好了很多你最愛的食物和飲品著急的在等你，一看到你就立即放在那仍在生氣的你的面前，然後低聲細語的對你說：“寶貝，你應該餓了吧，渴了吧，快吃吧，別在氣了，是我錯” 的時侯，那便是愛了。愛，就是這麼簡單！"
"You get what you tolerate in life.
If you tolerate your own mediocre performance, you get mediocre performance.
I believe, in many ways, this is also true for relationships and in business.
In Relationships:
If you tolerate an abusive relationship. You get what you tolerate.
If you tolerate an unfaithful relationship. You get what you tolerate.
If you tolerate a boring, lackluster, unhappy relationship. You get what you tolerate.
Perhaps it's time to do something to improve it or simply call it quits and move on. Otherwise, stop complaining, you get what you tolerate.
In Business:
If you tolerate poor staff performance. You get what you tolerate.
If you tolerate poor excuses. You get what you tolerate.
If you tolerate being taken advantaged by uncooperative (and lazy) colleague. You get what you tolerate.
Perhaps it's time to step up and make a change." ~ Joey Yap
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1 comments:
Enjoy reading your blog a lot! You are one great gal. Don't be sad, if people cannot appreciate you, there are plenty of others out there who will! Btw, I was sitting behind you at Joey Yap's "Face Reading" workshop at Amara hotel few months ago! Anyway relationship is one area I truly believe is based on Destiny. Have have lor, dun have what to do. Cheer up! :)
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